Why, Why, Why
I am writing this, cause sometimes I wonder "WHY"; Why so much pain?? Haven't I suffered long enough?? My precious boys, I love them so much; it hurts me to see them hurting. I don't have any answers, but the Lord knows. Sometimes I wonder if God even hears my cries; I believe he does, and is giving me the strength to press on. It is so exhausting to fight my eating disorder, a son who is really struggling behaviorally, and another son who just likes to irritate his brother. The Lord knows!! I just got them settled down its somewhat quiet, and I turn on my CD (I love music); listening to the words, and I don't know but sometimes the song just meets you where your at and it ministers to you. Well, that is what has happened.... This is the song...
NEAR by Jason Crabb
How can a world so beautiful??
Be so cold, be so cruel?
Sometimes love just seems so far away.?
Suffering is no stranger here?
Breaks my heart, feeds my fear?
Trying to steal my hope, and my faith.
??But I believe when you say
??You are near, whenever I feel alone?
?I'm not on my own?
God I know I you're standing here.
You are near, when all the world seems dark?
Still I know you are the light? that will always find me here?
?You are near.??
Father we know you're here with us, ? In our tears, In this dust?
Reaching them where sometimes we just can't see. ?
You never leave, and never will
?Your love saves does not fail?
So lead us to be the hands and feet.??
Until the whole world sees??
That you near, whenever I feel alone?
I'm not on my own?
God I know your standing here.?
You are near when all the world seems dark?
Still I know you are the light? that will always find me here
? You are near??
On the cross your life was taken,?
by your death we are awakened?
We will never forsaken now
?You're alive, and hope is risen?
Heart restored and I'm forgiven
?Love is here to stay and love is here to stay.?
You are near, whenever we feel alone
We're not on our own?
God we know your standing here.?
You are near, when all the world seems dark?
Still we know you are the light? that will always find us here?
You are near.
?You are near.
??Whenever I feel alone?
I'm not on my own?
God I know your standing here.
Thanks, Lord for sending me your words through a song, and reminding me "You are with me" even when I can't feel you. Lord, I need your strength today more than I did yesterday. I need your wisdom, direction, love, and most of all I need you!!! I am sorry for the times I get so caught up with the cares of this world, and forget to take time to pray, to study your word, and mediate on your grace and mercy. Lord, I love you!! I want to turn to you for guidance, for the problems at hand. I can't do this on my own, and you have let me know through this song you are near. Lord, Thanks for sending this at just the right moment. You are all I need!! Please help my family to be the family you want us to be, a family that represents you, a family that can't be destroyed. Thanks once again for reminding me You are near, even when its my darkest hour. Thank you for your grace and mercy that you shown us. AMEN